Slowly finding my feet…

Huge Caterpillar climbing on Plant

I’m thinking that I would like to begin blogging again. I don’t know how often I can do that though because this time, I want to blog from my heart. I’m quite shy about revealing my heart so this is not going to be easy, but I’m going to try.

I read this post on the Messy Marriage blog that reinforced my decision to go back to personal blogging. I found the blog by mistake, but I love the way the writer writes; she’s so open and real. I wish I could open myself up that way.

Life has been topsy turvy for me; uphill now, downhill again. I’m not sure which is worse, to keep struggling uphill, or to have everything so messed up?

I’ve been studying the book of Acts because I need to learn how to get more faith. There are days when I look up and I look down, and then I look up again and everything is grey; there does not seem to be help coming from anywhere. It’s for those days that I soak in the wondrous and miraculous things that happened decades ago. I’m hoping that somehow, my life won’t remain the way it is for too long. I mean maybe, just maybe Peter’s extraordinary courage or Paul’s boldness will rub off on me.

So I’m going to start blogging. I’m not just trying to get the hang of this Mummy thing, I’m trying to get the hang of this life thing. I don’t know if anyone is going to read this, but if you stumble upon my blog, kindly leave me an encouraging comment. :)

It’s only February and I’m tired

I haven’t been here in almost a year and that’s because my life has been one upheaval after another. First of all, I’m not blogging from Nigeria. We had to leave Malaysia due to a change in policy (no more spouse visas for our category)…it’s a long story. So we spent most of last year trying to settle back in.

Then this year – January 1 to be exact – I got a call that my mum slumped and so I packed up and rushed to her. It was a 12 hour trip by road and I think it must have been too much for the kids because a couple of weeks later, they all fell sick. ALL 3 of them. At. The. Same. Time.

Talk about crazy.

Sooo…we’re just coming out of that now. Thankfully, all the kids are okay. But now, I’m just plain tuckered out. Exhaustion seems to be a cloak that wraps me so tightly, I can’t seem to get unwrapped.

But I’m glad to be alive. I’m happy everyone is fine. My mum is doing okay too.

On the downside, my business had to be put on hold. I’ve not been able to write. Thankfully, my clients have been understanding. I hope I’ll be able to get back to writing soon.

Staying Positive

I haven’t been here lately and that’s because there have been a lot of things happening in my life, not all of them positive. I’ve been struggling to keep my head above water and so I’ve mainly been at my writing blog, which is what I do when there are things I’m not ready to deal with. I write.

However, yesterday was Hubby’s birthday and I wish I could have thrown a big party for him, you know…a real bash. The kind where you send out IVs with fancy print envelopes¬†and all that. But I couldn’t.

Instead, we had a good friend babysit the kids and took a drive out. I rented a car for that. We went to see a movie (Iron Man 3), but couldn’t stay till the end as the loud noise and violence was wearing my nerves thin. Though, I guess they were already thin to start with.

There is so much to be thankful for and when I’m tempted to forget how good God has been to me, I just have to look at my husband and know that I’ve had it good indeed.